School.

School starts tomorrow. I am dreading it so terribly. I really hate school. I hate it! I was homeschooled for four years and I really want to do it again. What I really want is to do the Classical School. I would take Math and Writing. It is a school that you go to two days a week and take classes, and homeschool all the rest of the time! My parents think that God wants me at GPCS, the small private christian school, but I just don’t see why God would want me at a place I hate. I am left out a lot. Sure, I have my friends, but, there is so much gossip and ridicule. I am so glad I am not in a public school. I guess it is really hard now since I had Krissy and Son over, and they are happily homeschooled and wouldn’t school for the world. So many of my friends are! It is hare to see them, and then go back to school. And I…I will really miss my mom! *sniff* Seeing her all day every day is the best part of the summer. I will really miss her!!
I just hate it all. I want to be homeschooled. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school. I hate school.
Sorry. I really needed to say that. *sigh*
I guess I just need to accept what God wants me to do. I don’t want to accept it…I feel like if I do, God and mom and dad will think that I am happy and won’t ever let me homeschool. That is a foolish thing to think, but I do. Then I think, also very foolishly, that if I don’t accept it, they will never let me homeschool either. I don’t really know what I should think. *sigh* It is really hard.
So, pray for me. I am afraid to pray for either. I am upset, so my mind is muddled and I don’t even think perfectly straight.
Sorry for going on like that. It was necessary.

This is the last entry that I will give before school starts.

1 Comment

  1. Jessie Said,

    August 30, 2003 @ 9:03 am

    You should ask God to lead you in the right direction.

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